Remember this

You have to be alone, in a half-empty apartment, at 4:30 am, having a horrible nightmare;
then you have to wake up scared, shivering and worried;
you need to call everyone you know who might answer their phones at this time, even friends in other states;
and no one should answer their phones.
Then, you need to burst into tears, and cry for hours, till you fall asleep again;
All these to know that you are alone, completely alone, and all those people who kept calling you the next morning, are way far away...

Something has changed in me since that night.